OJ Simpson. He was found guity of kidnapping and robbery charges as of Saturday morning.
Starting 13 yrs ago, I only seemed to have one thought of OJ. Guilty! Guilty, guilty, guilty! Why did I feel that way? Well, it appeared he was a wife beater and in my eyes, any man you can beat his wife sure as hell can kill her. Easily. I mean, my ex could have killed me numerous times. He came really close a couple of times. But anyways.. That was then-and up till about ... well, this morning-and this is now.
Now that there is a guilty verdict... Hmm.. Well, let's see. I believe it was incredibly stupid doing what he did how he did it. He should be found guilty for *this* crime. Alot are saying he was found guilty however of a crime 13 yrs ago. Was he? Maybe. I can't say. I can honestly say 13 yrs ago is 13 yrs ago. He was found innocent, whether we liked it or not. I didn't. The book? Bad taste. Stupid. However, who is to say that without a doubt that is in itself an admission of guilt? Maybe it's not. Maybe in some deep part of OJ there was a want to become a writer. Maybe there was in him an imagination that would put even the best crime writers to shame. Maybe.. it is an admission of guilt. Maybe it is an in your face "Ha Ha!" I guess only OJ knows. And up until this morning, I didn't see it that way. I saw it as *I* knew. It was undeniably an admission of guilt. But was it? That's my thought process now. I haven't read the book, I don't plan on it. Today. I might plan on reading it tomorrow. No tellin'.
Saturday morning, upon hearing the guilty verdict, I did yell out a "hooray!" however..why? It was because to me, he was found guilty of 13 yrs ago. I know, I know, not fair. And it's not. I'll admit that. It's not even really that I saw it as him being found guilty now of something that happened 13 yrs ago. It was more along the lines of 'finally, he's getting punished for
something
. He's not getting away with everything. For awhile it was as if he was doing his thing, wrong included, and not getting punished for it. This time, he went barging into a hotel room with 5 other people, 2 with guns to 'steal'? back stuff that was 'stolen'? from him? That in itself raises questions for me but that might have to be another time. As for the Goldman's..I just feel the need to hug them. They lost a brother. A son. They believe (wrong or right) that OJ was responsible for it and due to that belief, they have been on him like stink on poop. I would think they can now breathe a sigh of relief. Kind of a 'it's over' type thing, a 'we can stop to breathe' thing. Then again, can they? Are they? Is it for them? Would it be for me? I don't know. I believe I would feel a sense of ... being able to relax. No, it wouldn't bring my loved one back. But I would have a sense of being able to relax.
So, in closing, he's guilty. As he should be. For
this
crime. Nothing else. What am I trying to say in this ramble? What is my point with all of this? Whose side am I on? I don't have any answers. Not all my thoughts are clear and necessarily have a point to them that I (or anyone else) can figure out. It's just me and how I am. Love me or leave me.
